Anonymous asked:

This is a genuine question, not a dig, I'm just slightly confused and curious, how can you accidentally lose weight on leave? Glad you had a good time and got some freedom, good luck xxx

through--a--glass--darkly:

Really quite easily to be honest. It’s just impossible for me to be able to keep up the rigidity of the meal plan when I’m off the ward. For one thing, I require a hell of a lot of support in order to nourish myself - though I stayed with a very close friend on Saturday, and my boyfriend on Sunday, as incredible both these sources of support were, neither can perform miracles. In the ‘real world’ there just simply isn’t the time or money or opportunity to be able to commit to sitting down to eat something multiple times a day with someone - not many people, at least not those who I spend time with, force themselves to have three meals, two heavy puddings, and three food AND drink snacks per day… it’s unrealistic with my lifestyle. Perhaps spending all night dancing on Saturday night wasn’t a particularly sensible idea whilst trying to hold onto weight, nor going to my boyfriend’s with neither of us in a financial position to be able to afford a thing pretty much, but there you go. Life’s a bitch sometimes. I might not have eaten half as much as I would here (even if I’d wanted to or could make myself I couldn’t afford to in all honesty) but at least I had an amazingly nourishing first weekend in the ways that matter most to me. Thank you, you’re very kind xxx

Can I just say that Mimi was with me for a lot of leave and despite eating a normal amount of meals, we did a lot of dancing (not to lose weight, but just to have fun) and due to this fun she might have happened to lose weight … but it wasn’t purposeful - and if anyone is to blame it is me because I took her out dancing; I chose to do that. So it’s definitely not her fault. Mimi had a mentally nourishing weekend, so to be honest - that was the most important. And I take full responsibility because I wanted to go out boogying :D.

through—a—glass—darkly:

Moments of yesterday’s weird and wonderful trip to the #saatchi #contemporaryart #gallery with the.marvellous Frangipan - couldn’t have asked for a better couple of hours’ escape from the unit. #personal #me #london #art #goodtimes #inpatient #recovery

well - that was a most fantabulous day - couldn’t have asked for a better time :D

through—a—glass—darkly:

Moments of yesterday’s weird and wonderful trip to the #saatchi #contemporaryart #gallery with the.marvellous Frangipan - couldn’t have asked for a better couple of hours’ escape from the unit. #personal #me #london #art #goodtimes #inpatient #recovery

well - that was a most fantabulous day - couldn’t have asked for a better time :D

through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)
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through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)
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through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)
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through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)
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through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)
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through—a—glass—darkly:

Today has been a better day. Not without its great struggles, but dressing up for my man seemed to brighten my mood oh-so-slightly and then having him visit and make me feel the most beautiful girl on earth was wonderful of course - I miss him so much already. A mystery parcel arriving in the post full of the most fabulous bits and bobs imaginable could not have been more appreciated… all thanks to the lovely punkkimono, to whom a thank you will be sent to as soon as I can!  There has also been some good news too on the care plan front after management round… hopefully things can only get better, right?

looking swell :)

Bipolar Diagnosis

So this bipolar diagnosis has really shocked me - I understand how it fits in with my moods and emotions … and life in general. But, I don’t understand how I can fix it. And I’m not sure I can, this really really scares me. Today, I’ve woken up and suddenly I’m motivated and ready to do things. And then I remember the last 2 months where I have literally done nothing. Literally, just slept on the sitting-room floor. And it doesn’t feel real. I can’t believe I did that, it all feels like a dream. What actually is real? Have I just really lost two months of my life to NOTHING. Have I really just wasted that time. That is NOT ME. I don’t understand how I could have done that, I’m so confused. How do I now go back to living after having not lived for 2 months.

I.just.don’t.understand.

So, the start of yesterday was so unbelievably shit - I thought it couldn’t possibly have improved … but it did - and why? Because of the lovely Naomi who has managed to put up with me on several occasions :P. See you soon, and thanks!  

Today was much too stressful - so I locked myself in the bathroom for 3 hours, ran a bath and watched numerous old episodes of Jonathan Creek. Now I’m happy :D

Today was much too stressful - so I locked myself in the bathroom for 3 hours, ran a bath and watched numerous old episodes of Jonathan Creek. Now I’m happy :D

psychiatric assessment

really really nervous about this - nerves don’t really even cover it, wish me luck … I just pray they don’t refer me somewhere else AGAIN

through—a—glass—darkly:

In reverence of the power of the psychology of fashion and colour, not to mention the fabulousness of impulsivity I DIY dip-dyed my hair last night. Waking up a slightly new me and with art-is-recovery's crystal pendant on at all times I hope that I can get through today. 

got some fantabulous mermaid hair going on :D

through—a—glass—darkly:

In reverence of the power of the psychology of fashion and colour, not to mention the fabulousness of impulsivity I DIY dip-dyed my hair last night. Waking up a slightly new me and with art-is-recovery's crystal pendant on at all times I hope that I can get through today. 

got some fantabulous mermaid hair going on :D

Love to the loveliest person every